I forgot that I had said I would upload all of my notes from my phone onto this, so here's a note dump in chronological order. You will understand why the title is LTLWO Luggage by the end I think...
Weight 8 Jan =92kg. This is not the heaviest I have been but it is pretty close. It doesn’t feel right, that I could be carrying around essentially the size of a bag of luggage all day every day but yes, I am 27kg heavier than I would like to be. That is a lot to lose. I need to lose 14kg in 6 months to go on this holiday so I will have to step up my game to deal with this. I already can’t have gluten and controlling that is easy now, so I just need to keep myself on track so I can get down to only being carry-on baggage overweight, and then just handbag overweight.
Weight
11 Jan 91kg. This has actually been fun. Robbie is great to work with for
weight loss, he is competitive and gives me the drive to succeed. At the moment
the plan is for twice weekly Wii Fit weigh ins, with Thursday being our reward
day (if we meet targets we get a reward e.g. movie or timezone). This Sunday
weigh in was good, lost 1.3kg since last time but Robbie’s was after he had
dinner so he lost less. I’m sure this Thursday he will give me a run for my
money! Emotion-wise I think I am doing ok. I am trying not to stress about what
I eat as long as I record it so I gave a good picture of how much I am eating.
The exercise thing is still not great but I know that weigh in challenges are a
great motivation. We need to lose 2kg between us for Thursday to do it – around
1kg each.
14
Jan – weigh in is tomorrow and I ate two pieces of ginger slice. I shouldn’t
feel bad because I can make it up in other ways but I have that guilt now. Just
have to stop it from spiralling and causing me to give up all at once in an
inferno of chocolate. This is going to take a long time. Pretty much the rest
of my life. Sucks. I hope I don’t need surgery to get rid of loose skin. I hope
I don’t lose a whole lot and gain it back over Easter. I want to lose between a kg and half a kg each week but I am sure there will be plateaus somewhere. I don't want to give up. I don't want to stay fat. I want to wear a bikini on a beach. I want to shop for size 12 or medium. I want to be able to run.
15 Jan - Weigh in today! That means it has only been one
week but it feels like much longer hmph. Side effects have been grumpiness,
tiredness, strange poop, sleepiness at 2pm and cravings. Oh the cravings! Sweet
salty savoury sticky forbidden goodness. A whole week without gummi lollies,
chocolate milk, bad potato chips and my other favourite monsters. It isn't that
I can’t have them, its if I do I have to do twice the work to make up for it. I
am not a fan of work. I hope I have lost another kg. That would be super.
Having all of it drop off would make me very happy. If I was really trying I
wouldn't drink water or eat food for at least a few hours before but I can't
ruin this with sick cutting style diet work. I will have afternoon tea so I am
not fully starving at 5, then strip down and do the weigh.
Weight 19 Jan = 89.9kg woop woop! I am under 90! So sad to
think I thought I was at 85kg. I remember at high school when Erin was 80kg and
how bad I thought that was when I was 75kg myself. 14kg is how much weight I
need to lose to go to Vanuatu so how much is that going to bring me to?
92-14-78. Not super skinny but close to 75 which is then only 10kg from my goal
weight. Ideally I would like to be 65 when I go to Vanuatu but I have to be
realistic – losing 28kg in 28 weeks isn’t really that healthy and if I am
honest with myself I think my mental health would benefit from taking it slow.
Measurement tum 113.5cm, thigh 65.5cm, lovehandle 95cm
Weight 25 Jan – 88.5! Whaaaaa. So good, funny to think I am
3.5 away from what I thought I was though. Boobs haven’t gotten smaller but
back has. One of my bras is too loose to wear now.
When I look in the mirror I don’t see any changes. Its funny
to think that I have so much fat that the current losses don’t mean much. I
also know I have to slow down the weight loss a little – if I lose too much too
fast I could have loose skin, whereas if I take my time it should be able to
keep up.
One thing I would really like to do is exercise before
breakfast. I could get up at 6, go for a run or a swim and be back by 7 ready
to shower and go to work. Another idea is to jump rope- we have a courtyard we
can use, I just need to shift the plant containers around some. Jumping rope
gives a full body workout too, just not great for the bewbs. The reason I don’t
get up isn’t because I am too snuggly, it is because he doesn’t want to get up,
he wants to snuggle. I hate to say no so I don’t get up. Maybe I should talk to
him about it.
I have this gym membership so I need to use it! Maybe I
should go to the gym proper rather than classes. All I know is I need to get
fit to wear a bikini, not soft. Trying to imagine what I would look like 20kg
lighter is pretty crazy but I want it.
29 Jan – Weigh in is tonight. I have sabotaged myself
because of a slip up yesterday. It started with one marshmallow egg, which was
not so bad. Approx 500kjs which is high for a snack but it was just one. By the
end of the day I had bought a tray of the eggs (a little smaller at 410js) and
eaten two of six. Today I ate the rest, That’s 400x4 today and 500+800
yesterday, 1600 today which is as big as my lunch. 2900 omg so much. I will be
interested in this weigh in because last Sunday I was down to 88.5 and tonight after these kjs I might gain some
more. Doctors appointment tonight so I will get him to weigh me and compare it
to the Wii. I hope my already low levels mean I can still lose weight today. I
will have a plan for next time I crave. I will not eat them again until April.
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That’s enough
for one post. So many more of these little notes to go!
